as I'm watching awkward, I'm in a mood for writing in english and my school is not giving me enough opportunities for that, so I have to do it somewhere.

1. my social life is on a weird stage right now. there's too many people with who I would like to spend time and no one with whom I would feel really myself. I miss good old times when I had this perfect friend by my side; a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen to my whims and a diaryfor my secrets. but that is no more.

2. my grades suck asses. really, when have I fallen so low? that's humiliating. I'm such a lazy silly brat. well, but holidays are coming and let's hold on to that. but hanging out with someone who has best grades on everything form maths to pe is really depressing. 

3. I don't really like my family life right now. I miss my mum and I really hate the thought that there's quite a lot of time until I see her again.

4. I hate how boring everything is recently. Nothing changes, nothing to wait for. I need to have some mile stones so I could move on. That's so much easier than just doing everthing continously. Baby steps 4ever.

5. Yeah... baby. I've started to love children so much recently! That's so unfashionable, every teenager should be disgusted by them, and I'm just growing more and more fond of them. 

6. my holiday plan's are not overwhelming, but could've been worse. seaside with girls and family trip with mommy. I'm sort of afraid about the first one, cause my relations with girls are really variable and one moment I love them but next moment I hate them. what can I do? i guess i can just observe and make conclusions. i should lose some weight untill the trip but as i mentioned before I'm a lazy brat so that might not actually work out so well. help me someone :((((((((((((((((((((((((((