Why?

Heh, it's a bit funny, after so many years of fighting with my weaknesses, with all these thoughts that are still wandering in my head in different directions.

I'm coming to the conclusion that it's best to give up, but not in a bad way.

Because why fight a cause that's already lost? 

There is a chance to change something, to do something, but why? 

What will be will be, and even with a small influence on all this, there is nothing more I can do. 

Time flies, things change, thoughts in my head only prevent me from making the right decisions. 

On the other hand, going with the flow is not good either, because somewhere along the way there may be a boulder that will stop me.

So there's no point in trying to keep trying because in the end it won't matter much anyway. Slowly I feel that I'm fading away and despite good intentions to improve it all, I'm disappearing somewhere...

"Why are you never real?

Whenever you appear

You leave me with that grace

I am trembling with fear

But I know that you will disappear

Just as I awake

Whisper in my ear

Well, I believe

Somewhere in the past

Something was between

You and I, my dear

And it remains

With me to this day

No matter what I do

This scar will never fade

So let's make trouble in the dream world

Hijack heaven with another memory now

I make the most of the turning tide

It just split what's left of the burning silence

Don't wait, 'cause this could be the last time

You turn up in the reveries of my mind

I wake up to a suicide frenzy

Loaded dreams still leave me empty"

New DaTa** out.