Every single thought.

Sad eyes she said...

All this time I was fighting with myself who I had to kill because I thought it would be easier that way. 

Today I found that transforming myself does not give me anything, I keep making the same mistake all my life saying that "this time it will be better". 

This time something would change, but all the time I was lying to myself believing in something that had no right to exist.

Not seeing the person I miss every day, whom I care about so much and whom I have known for a long time that I love with all my being, today looking at her, hearing, something has changed in me. Something I haven't even seen in millions of my thoughts.

In addition, a conversation with my friend who is not fully aware of what is going on. 

She gave me an interesting idea that I'm going to transform and use in my own way. 

These last few days have given me more thought than years of trying to remake myself. 

In addition, an important aspect in all this was, unfortunately, unimaginable pain that showed me how wrong I was.

Either way, I already know where I have to go and what I have to do. Unfortunately, it's going to hurt a lot...Again..

"I tried to hold on so tight

But you left when I needed you most

I guess hearts like mine were meant to be broke

I know I thought we had more time

When you left didn't know what I'd lost

You only know it's love when it's gone

And now it's too late"

DaTa** out.