Too Fast...

In just a few days that seems like whole year for me, soo many thing's happen that i just can't handle it..

Too much alkohol, too much time spending on trying to forget, trying to get away from my nightmares..

I though i can do this, i can stand on my legs and say to my self : " I can do this ! " But right now i feel like i was flying and now i'm going down... 

Is this is what must happen ? 

Am i so bad ? I just don't know anything right now...

I need someone, i need a simple hug... But minute after minute i'm thinking i don't deserve it...

In my damn life i did sooo much bad things just to feel better, but on the other hand i did much good... i know i did, but so what ? 

I'm tired of this... i really hate my self... 

Thank You Seniorita K.K for being honest, and for that other day...

Will i disappear for good this time ? Do i really want that ? Do i really need that...? Does they need me ?

I don't know... And i think i don't wanna know... 

Heh, simple things but soo hard to do...

DaTa** out.