I really wanted this... I tried.

Hello darkness, my old friend... 

However, I came back to you again, 

I slowly start to close up and disappear again, 

I don't have the strength for all this, this time I think I will hug you forever and I won't let go because I don't have the support I thought I would have...

Everything slowly stops mattering... I even made a new drawing to see if I would feel anything, and all I felt was sadness... and the picture I drew with a pencil showed me my facial expression... "indifference".

I just hope it will just get better. Because I am not needed by anyone, and if I am, it is only for a moment, which simply hurts. I remembered my entries from years ago, where I talked about this very thing, and also about the fact that I apparently had to be left alone.

"I tried to hold on so tight

But you left when I needed you most

I guess hearts like mine were meant to be broke

I know I thought we had more time

When you left didn't know what I'd lost

You only know it's love when it's gone

And now it's too late"

DaTa** out.