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so many thoughts on my mind right now

it's gonna be a sad story i think.

i can't move my ass from that place.

i can't think straight since i've came back from Warsaw.

this was supposed to be the best weekend in my life.

and it was in some part. but... ough, people.

there were more sad things than i expected.

i'm thankful for accepted me in this group i was.

but i'm blaming myself for ruining the most important day.

i can't forgive myself.

i know, i don't deserve to be with them,

it's not right anymore.

this weekend changed everything.

i have never cried this much before. 

not even five years ago, when you had gone.

i replaced you by the best person in this world.

he doesn't even know who i am, what i feel.

he helped me in this touhg times.

i'm looking at him everyday and i know what it is.

you can call this stupid, i don't even care.

you don't know me, any part of me.

there is only one person who knows what i feel.

and i'm very thankful to her for understanding. 

i have to make up my mind.

i'm coming home and everything have to come back to reality.

it isn't as easy as i thought.

my feeling are still in a big mess.

i know only one thing.

i don't want to change this kind of feeling.

never.

i don't know who am i. 

there are so many things i want to say to you.

a lot of things to ask you.

a big dream to hear your laugh.

i want to believe i can do this.

someday. i will.

oppa, gieog, dangsineul salanghaeyo. hangsang.

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