Baby, join me in death

Jest gorzej.

There's nothing to lose, when no one knows your name

There's nothing to gain, but the days don't seem to change

Kuasjcfrwa, nie wiem co się ze mną dzieje. Pogarszam się, znów jest mi bardzo źle. Nie wiem co chcę. 

You don't give a shit and you never did. I rememebr fucking worrying every fucking day because you fucking tried killing yourself at any chance you got, i was there, maybe not twenty four seven but i was there. More than your other friends or your fucking ex girlfriend. So I was kinda nothing to you, huh? I was just someone you could run back to? Someone you ran back to when you had no one else, someone you ran back to when you didn't have anything to do or anyone better to speak to. I'm fucking shit of everything, now that I think about it, I don't know why I fucking bothered. Now I'm left, hurt. This is so fucking pointless. You're out there, having fucking fun fucking dempsey and falling in love or whatever the fuck. I don't believe in love, it's fucking stupid. I fucking hate you, I hate everything you do and they way you speak and they way smile, they way you look at me. The worst thing is, I actually don't hate you. But I'm jsut fucking sick of all the shit. 

But..

There's a still soft spot for someone else. Yes.. I fucking hate what he did to me, I hate the fact that he cheated on me and lied to me, he changed my view on love/relationship etcetc but there's still that soft spot for him. I'll never properly get over him. I know that. This time last year, I was falling for him. Wow, time goes by so fast. At least we talk quite a bit now but I still don't get to see him a lot. It's because of antonia, he said he'd want to see me more but antonia.

Ah well, i don't give a shit. I just want to fucking cut deep enough so I cold faint. Or take enough painkillers to fall in deep sleep.

I DONT GIVE A SHIT, FUCK OFF, I FUCKING HATE WHAT I'VE BECOME AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A FUCKING GOOD DAY