And she goes, "I just really think that this is the time..." And I thought she was gonna say that we flush this and get it over with. But instead she goes, "I really think that I should finish what I have left and THEN get clean." "We'll spend this time together and it will be beautiful and I promise I'll hold you and we'll watch a movie and we'll be in complete peace. And then I will never do this again. And I will get clean and sober and we'll put all the drugs in our past and I will go to rehab and I will get help. But let's just have one more good night." And I felt like someone grabbed a rug underneath and just ripped it and I fell face down into the ground.